easy laughing

it is with a special smile and a secret secret

word that

i say

i love you

in words you won't see so

you'll never know how vulnerable i was.

and how much i was yours, even

just for a second

like i was waiting for you

to speak the same words

so i could

know

you

Understood

where i came from and why

and why

and why it had to be done

in this manner. But sometimes

sometimes i am all cryptic

and maybe this

is why

why

why it has to be done

like this.

and most of all, i think

i fear your words

and the hard sound

that no would make

when it fell so carelessly

from easy laughing lips.